always tired

no one respect me.
I'm tired!
did anyone know?
no, they shouldn't.
and no, they won't know it -.- I KNOW.
they ever asked me, but I know that question doesn't mean that they care about me.
in this world, it is just live being alone.
I have nothing, I have no direction.
where should I go?
anyone will take me away from here?
blink.
it is just stay the same :')
i'm being tired. I'm being sick.
but no one interest or want to know.
ah, i have nothing.
i'm just a girl that stuck in the middle of the earth.
i'm just still feeling alone when I'm on crowded room.
am I blind? no.
am I idiot? no.
then?
okay, I just have studpid question with an idiot anwers.

sister, when you will go home and put me to the mall? tell ya funny or sad story? I MISS YOU. please go home :') I have nothing except you. I don't have any friend to laughing for if it isn't you.

brother, when you'll stop go out? you don't realize that I'm always stuck lonely in front of my laptop? I really want to caring you, but I just don't know how. I LOVE YOU, MY LITTLE BRO.

daddy, thanks to always come to my room when I'm alone :') I know you're kinda busy. and you just have 'don't care' things like what I did, but I really understand it. get well soon dad, I LOVE YOU.

mommy, even you're not here please don't think that I will forget you that easily :') I MISS YOU SO MUCH. wish that God will keep you fine there :*.

I've been such a loner.
loneliness up ahead.
I just make those things get mess up.

I DON'T WANT JUST LIVE.
BUT I WANT TO SURVIVE.
LIFE WITHOUT DREAMING IS A LIFE WITHOUT MEANING.

I know that I still have many dreams that waiting me.
I just want to keep my head held high :')
I don't want to lose.
I just want to climbing over the mountain.
make them proud of who I am.
learn from yesterday.
live for today.
and keep dreaming for tommorow.
fighting!

^^ gocha gocha!